always love

I've been thinking so much lately...about life and what I really have to live for. We(me+someone I used to know) can't be best friends forever. We're too different...grown apart...different parts in our lives...i can't trust you. I wish I were still as optimistic as I was in high school, I mean last semester. It's crazy how things/people can change just over a few months. I lied when I said I wish I went home for the break. I don't like how you've changed since I left. Your so- called best friends are so full of themselves and don't respect you. Too lost in themselves to give a damn about you. I think you've settled for the subtle abuse because its all you have. Sooner or later, you'll become just like them. I'm not sure if I should remind you of what a real friend is like or leave now before you start to abandon me for your personal reasons. Maybe I'll tell you this one day...hopefully. street lights glowing...happen to be just like mome...

...them all. most girls i've met named jenny are all sluts in their own rights. all dying for attention. boys named josh, just as slutty. but not as good looking as the jennys. all my friends fail at being true to themselves. fuck trying to be ghetto when you grew up sheltered as hell. you can't hide the truth. fuckin desperate bitches. overrated boys and attention starved girls. i'm gonna hate myself for posting this tomorrow.

my weekend on stuck campus was...well amazing. friday . my class was canceled, so i slept relatively late. during my usual phone call, i saw a friend(?), and hung out with her for like an hour. nikki eventually texts, and we go to wood to watch ping pong. alex and his friends were playing/acting ridonkulous. we basically stayed there for close to 4 hours. very crazy, i know, but it was fun. saturday . i was awakened by like 80 texts so sat up and watched grounded for life. i went to the mall and the game. i left the game and went to k. roger and then to my room. i got a text from nikki to hang, and almost as soon as i get there, we get ready to head to some frat house her with her friend....who was annoying in an entirely new sense of the word. while we waited for the king of annoyance, i got to meet another cute & tall friend of nikki's, paul. at the frat house, we were greeted with the wasted blonde twins. turned the corner, and saw 3 guys playing pool. 1st to talk was jamie ...