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man, did i love bolt.com. before i found myspace, facebook, or any other social sites, this was the place to be. the phrase "social networking" had no meaning to me then. all i wanted to do was talk to other teens, joke around and have fun. they had groups, chatting, and little badges to collect. my friends were so confused by the idea of talking to kids from all across the country over the internet. imo, they just weren't cool enough. that old school layout brings back so many memories!! i loved logging in and seeing new notes. lol. those were good times, but they should nvr bring back bolt. it's like high school. you miss it once its gone, but those four years won't be the same.

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die pure gold.

I've been thinking so much lately...about life and what I really have to live for. We(me+someone I used to know) can't be best friends forever. We're too different...grown apart...different parts in our lives...i can't trust you. I wish I were still as optimistic as I was in high school, I mean last semester. It's crazy how things/people can change just over a few months. I lied when I said I wish I went home for the break. I don't like how you've changed since I left. Your so- called best friends are so full of themselves and don't respect you. Too lost in themselves to give a damn about you. I think you've settled for the subtle abuse because its all you have. Sooner or later, you'll become just like them. I'm not sure if I should remind you of what a real friend is like or leave now before you start to abandon me for your personal reasons. Maybe I'll tell you this one day...hopefully. street lights glowing...happen to be just like mome...

...them all. most girls i've met named jenny are all sluts in their own rights. all dying for attention. boys named josh, just as slutty. but not as good looking as the jennys. all my friends fail at being true to themselves. fuck trying to be ghetto when you grew up sheltered as hell. you can't hide the truth. fuckin desperate bitches. overrated boys and attention starved girls. i'm gonna hate myself for posting this tomorrow.

my weekend on stuck campus was...well amazing. friday . my class was canceled, so i slept relatively late. during my usual phone call, i saw a friend(?), and hung out with her for like an hour. nikki eventually texts, and we go to wood to watch ping pong. alex and his friends were playing/acting ridonkulous. we basically stayed there for close to 4 hours. very crazy, i know, but it was fun. saturday . i was awakened by like 80 texts so sat up and watched grounded for life. i went to the mall and the game. i left the game and went to k. roger and then to my room. i got a text from nikki to hang, and almost as soon as i get there, we get ready to head to some frat house her with her friend....who was annoying in an entirely new sense of the word. while we waited for the king of annoyance, i got to meet another cute & tall friend of nikki's, paul. at the frat house, we were greeted with the wasted blonde twins. turned the corner, and saw 3 guys playing pool. 1st to talk was jamie ...

seriously? people, stop bullshitting yourselves! you can't go write a "political rant" and half of it is composed of lyrics that you claim are your own words. internet celebrities are...unbelievable. be it the models or fame whores, it's all such a strange concept...and i'm sure i'll never understand the people that worship them. it's weird to see what they do with their fame. one, although slightly conceited, usually focused on fashion, but chose today to rise to her virtual soapbox with a message. it's fine to have opinions. it's even better to voice those opinions. i'm not sure what it is, but something about preaching half-assed politics to an audience of impressionable 15 year olds bothers the hell out of me. this is completely unorganized and one-sided. ...lol

i just revamped my entire myspace page. it's beyond bored...i am what normal people call lifeless. schoolwork is fucking overrated, so i'm not doing that. dammit. i wish my friends were here.

i hate crappy school websites that don't post any important information. i'm not writing my 2nd essay...but no one has to know. i don't know the name of the photog, so i guess i've given up. i'm definitely not doing that bullshit 2d project. the whole thing is completely vague, and i didn't come to college to work on that crap . this weekend, i'm going back home. pretty excited. semi-excited. kinda. eh. whatever. i feel like i don't belong with them sometimes. since i don't really feel in place here, i'm stuck in this in-between-friendships void that i won't can't escape until 2012. guys at this school are beyond ridiculous. immature or unavailible. there's never a balance...or maybe i'm not looking hard enough. i don't think i'm putting enough effort into having a social life. i'm not sure i want to...i've worked hard as fuck to get where i am now with my closest friends and i think i'm scared of starting over...

skipping class...listening to the cab//tai//atl//bowie...avoiding work...reflecting. today was, as usual, weird. today i got my first hug here from a new friend(?). so crazy. i thought i liked a guy, but height really does matter to me [instantly turned off when we stood near each other]. but there's always the cutie who sits in front of me twice a week. met another friend of the roommate...turns out i take a class with him. wondering why i'm not doing work? drawing and coloring black lines, or blog...what's more fun? i may have to stay on campus this weekend, which will suck balls. def need concert friends. so many bands are comin through nashville, literally makes me sick at the thought of missing them. new found glory ftw! kinda stuck in a pop-punk mood. pretty annoying when i want to hear songs with more meaning and all i hear are rap/r&b covers [here's to you holiday parade]. inspiration! i think i'll finally start my music blog and talk about powerpop cove...

i should be doing work, but i can't concentrate worth shit. i did find an amazing blog through AbsolutePunk in my procrastination. it's got tons of amazing bsides and lots of music i've wanted, but could never find. say anything, jimmy eat world, and so much more. oh, it is love.

one of the most meaningful songs i've heard. this amazing video only adds to beauty.

i think i love these boys. they make me want to move to new zealand.

i'm not sure if i'm ready for everything that's about to happen. scratch that, i'm not ready. i'm not sure about my friends...am i ready to leave them? everything is a blur. i don't know where i stand with anything or anyone. i guess i could say that i'm at a stand-still. oh i'm starting a music-esque blog...with album/concert reviews mixed with my take on happenings in the music industry. [take it with a grain of salt, because i don't know shit about the industry]

MUTO a wall-painted animation by BLU from blu on Vimeo . totally got this from the epitaph blog, but it's amazing.

[edit 5.21 9:42pm] yesterday at t.g.i. friday's. apparently that was the best strawberry rose the chef had ever made, and i was special enough to get it. right in the middle of my first tiny cupcake allen called to say justin dumped him. so erin and i were off to his house to make him feel better. we eventually ended up playing scene-it, hilarium, taboo, and pictionary from about 4-12am. which is crazy, but cool because i have amazing friends i can laugh and hang out with all day long. erin and i had planned on going to micah's party, but said "fuck it" and realized that our friends are cooler than that party could ever be.

[edit: 10:14 pm] yep. i finally graduated and i can't fucking believe it. brittney cried all the way across the stage, so i got super teary-eyed, but held it in. had a family dinner in honor of me :D. and i have decided that i should graduate everyday so i can have all these awesome gifts at my disposal. from now forward, i will be writing about more music, and important topics...or i might make a new blog dedicated to that stuff. laterz!

dizzleforizzle : 01/24/2008 8:13 PM boomskittle said: I truely don't understand what's so offensive about the word "nigger". I mean, sure, I'm not African-American, but i think people tend to blow it WAY out of proportion when it's used. How many white people do you know that take offensive when you call them "cracker", "honkey", or and other white names? Exactly. And it REALLY pisses me off that it's perfectly okay for two black people to call each other by that name, but oh, God forbid a white person say it to a black person! whoa! it's definitely not "perfectly okay" for black people to say it. it's rude, unnecessary, and makes us look ignorant of our history. the word offends me and i definitely don't appreciate it when anyone, of any color, calls me a nigger. as for nas: he can do whatever he wants, but if he wants to make any profit off of this album, he should probably change the title. ...

my hair's really sexy in this pic...too bad i put that bandanna on.

so i lied about the Beale Street Music Fest coverage. my bad. ...on to more important information. BREAKING NEWS! so ap.net is pretty much a breeding ground for awesome bands and people with sick taste in music. it's where i learned about the amazing Max Bemis and where i realized that so many others miss blink-182 as much as i do. ap.net has a huge thrice fan base. so with me being me, i decided that after hearing probably one thrice song in the past i'm a fan so i wouldn't feel left out. so i idiotically ignored them because they were some kind of untouchable band and there was no use in having an opinion towards them. so dumb of me. today they have an absolutexclusive of Thrice's vid for come all you weary. i heard it on conan and said "hey! i might as well watch the vid since i liked the song!" and now i'm in love with thrice. the video was cool, but it was on the stream with other songs from the alchemy index that got me hooked. this exclusive officia...

sexy dudes dancing to metro station. what more can a girl ask for?

Miley Cyrus and Mandy Jiroux VS the Adam/Chu Dance Crew this is some sick dancing. and i love adam sevani. :D i need to go to sleep. lol!

so this is my first post. i can't say much cause i'm getting ready for an action-packed weekend at memphis in may. hopefully, if i'm not too tired, i'll blog after each day of concerts. and i'll link my shozu to this account too, if i can. it's like 15 hours but i can't wait!! yep. i'm impatient. gotta cut this short: i'm supposed to be uploading my senior picnic photos. i can't believe every thing's almost over. yeah..so laters.